A bad moment

Posted on September 2, 2007
Filed Under - work, Emotions |

How do I say this? I am having a bad moment. I had a temp job for a couple of days with a solicitors in Truro. I thought it was all going fine but I found out on Friday afternoon from my recruitment consultant that they were really unhappy with me. I have no idea why, to be honest! Something is wrong, they were saying I did things that I didn’t do - such as surfing the net while at work. Anyway, it really upset me. It was like a slap in the face. I am also pretty embarrassed writing about it here. My first attempt at earning a bit of money down here and I get fired on my second day. I can’t tell you how that makes me feel….

I’ve just been sitting here looking through my budget. I have kept a record of what I have spent on moving down here, and everything I have spent since I got here. It all amounts to thousands of pounds. I’ve spent all this money and what has happened? Some fat, middle-aged secretary has decided she doesn’t like me.

Actually, when I put it like that, it sounds almost funny!

But when things like this happen to throw you off your game, all those feelings that usually remain at bay do come back. Loneliness and the feeling that you’ve made a huge mistake. Nobody to pick you up again, except a bottle of wine and your iTunes. One positive thing came out of it though. I was so angry and upset that I was really keen to go for a run! I wanted to feel that physical effort and that endorphin rush. I’ve got a local 10k race coming up in October so maybe what I need is an army of vengeful secretaries to make me angry enough to train my heart out!

Stumble it!

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5 Responses to “A bad moment”

  1. From temping hell to temping heaven « Drop-out Diaries on September 11th, 2007 10:55 pm

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  2. Wolfie Wolfgang on October 31st, 2007 3:27 pm

    Sory to hear about the bumpy start to your tempting but hope it’s still going well with the new place.

    I’m not suprized that you felt a bit knocked back. You’ve done a pretty brave (and wonderfully wild) thing. I really want you to make a go of this as I so admire you courage and single-mindedness.

    W.

  3. sally on November 2nd, 2007 1:28 pm

    Thanks so much!

    I tell you what, it took an effort of will to blog about it. I’m glad I did in the end because it is better for the situation to be out there rather than eating away inside.

    Blogging is quite therapeutic, especially when you are away from family and friends.

  4. Rachael on December 1st, 2007 3:12 pm

    Hey Sally, I can really relate to those ’slap in the face’ experiences. Maybe that fat middle aged manager wasn’t able to receive your greatness. I’ve been looking for office temp work myself because the teaching work I have follows the school term and it’s almost up for the year. I’m either not getting responses to my applications or people are asking for ridiculously specific experience. They can’t see that I’m valuable in my uniqueness… or maybe my resume is crap.

    Keep your chin up. Things will be ok.

    PSthanks for posting my interview!

  5. sally on December 1st, 2007 5:12 pm

    Cheers, yes things got much better after that experience, thankfully.

    I’m sure that the people asking for ridiculously specific experience will come crawling back when they don’t get anybody!

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