Still a free spirit but not a free agent

Posted on September 9, 2008
Filed Under - leaving the rat race |

Yusuf and Yakup fishing

I have just been on holiday in Turkey, visiting my sister who lives there with her Turkish husband and their little boy. It was while on holiday in Turkey a year and a half ago that I came up with the notion of giving up my career and moving out of London to a faraway rural corner of England.

Being on holiday does give one time to ponder, and the complete contrast of my sister’s life with mine was food for thought indeed. Last week I once again found myself on a beach in Turkey going through a similar thought process.

Of course I am in a different position from last time: the dream has partially been realised. But it is now clear that my dream was really only the beginning and that upping sticks and moving to the other end of the country is only the first step. My action was a ‘suck it and see’ exercise, accompanied by no clear vision of how it should pan out.

I am still a free spirit but not a free agent. I have had to submit to a nine to five job to keep the wolf from the door. It’s not a job I find deeply fulfilling but it must serve for now as I am now low on funds and in debt again.

I will be honest: I buggered up the financial side. I had no real financial plan and spent a lot of money. My next priority therefore – dull as it sounds – is to bring the finances back on track. Unless I can do this, I will continue to be a wage slave, albeit one who lives by the sea.

As for the rest, I’m still working on it. I lost sight of the dream for a few months whilst trying to keep body and soul together, but I’m back and focussing on the long term once more.

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2 Responses to “Still a free spirit but not a free agent”

  1. ultrafknbd on September 19th, 2008 5:30 am

    “I always resented the years, the hours, the minutes I gave them as a working stiff, it actually hurt my head, my insides, it made me dizzy and a bit crazy - I couldn’t understand the murdering of my years.”
    ~Charles Bukowski

  2. steve - crossfit on September 29th, 2008 4:58 pm

    Hi Sally,

    Maybe all great journeys start with a leap of faith into the unknown. It’s said that the universe will place opportunities in your path if you can keep your dream in mind and continue no matter what obstacles are placed in front of you, and obstacles are there to be overcome, like a hill run!

    I feel blessed in that when i have put myself out there something or someone has always appeared to help me on my way albeit sometimes it didn’t seem that way. When i started to look into spirituality and fitness one of my clients turned out to be a martial artist and fitness freak, later to become a crossfit trainer which led to me finding Andrew in london. I was given books that helped me conquer personality traits that had thus far stopped me from progressing and this led to me meeting my other half. I still have my moments but now i can appreciate the simple things in life and on the whole they are free.

    The work is ongoing…….

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